Saturday, January 31, 2009

I Deserve Better

I thought your friends were supposed to be a source of support and good times! I wish I could say the same about one of mine! For the last few months all she has done is create more stress and annoyance in my life! I think it's BS! I have been trying to take the little things with a grain of salt and just "get over it". But each time I do, I find out something else and it is seeming less and less worth the effort or the issues!

I try to be supportive and help and be there where I can. But since everything seems to be a competition in her eyes I am just wasted! I am done! This is not what I need or want in a friendship. My goal in life is to take care of my family and be there for my friends. Not to compete or one up people. I guess at the end of the day our goals and outlook on life are different and I just cannot budge where these things are concerned. If all she wants is to make me "jealous", then find a new friend and try to out do them. I do not have the time nor patience for this type of relationship! I expected it from her DH but am plain hurt this is coming from her! And I won't even go into how embarrassed I am! Sigh!

Monday, January 26, 2009

I Got An Award!!

I am actually a little blushed because it all!! I know people visit my blog and some occasionally even comment, but never did I imagine someone would think it was worthy of an award!! Kim of The Little Things is so sweet and is the one who gave me this awesome honor!!

By being the recipient of this award there are a few rules I must follow. They go a little something like this:

Rule #1: Choose a minimum of 7 blogs that you find brilliant in content or design.
Rule #2: Show the 7 winners' names and links on your blog, and leave a comment informing them that they were prized with the "Honest Scrap" award.
Rule #3: List at least ten honest things about yourself.


And the winners are.......(drum roll)........

The Bayou Belles and their Beau

Unlikely Oilfield Wife


Barleycorn Family

My Girl

Mrtland


So I Started a Group

Bakerella


Okay, that was the easy part! Now for the last task! 10 Honest Things About ME! I will try!

  1. I am an all or nothing person! If I do something I do it all the way and do it right! If I love someone I love them with all of myself! You will never get half effort or half a friendship or half of my love and attention!
  2. I am very family oriented! It hurts me when families fight or people cannot just be together and love each other! Without family we wouldn't be who we are! I have always lived away from part of my family. Since I was a little girl all I've ever wanted was for all of my family to be in the same state! Not spread between 3!
  3. I LOVE to dance! I wish I had done something about it when I was younger! At 30 it seems silly to take classes and want to dance all the time! But I do love it and it brings me so much happiness!
  4. I am addicted to shopping! I love to browse and buy! When I am down, shopping will make me forget all and feel better! Buying things for Regan and Bub makes me really happy! Actually more so than buying for myself!!
  5. I am an animal lover to the bone! I think life would be a lot less enjoyable without having critters around. We have 2 cats and 1 dog. The bring a lot of life to our home!!
  6. I have always wanted to be a mom! Always! And I always knew I wanted to stay home and raise them! Being hands on and experiencing everything is what I dreamt of doing. I was blessed with a great husband who made this wish come true for me! I will forever be grateful for that too!
  7. I organize a playgroup. Have done so for over 4 years. Funny thing is I think I was made to organize and bring people together! It has been a great experience and I have met so many wonderful people!
  8. I am a very competitive person! Playing cards, dominoes, any kind of games brings out a different side of me! I love to think and strategizing! Regan has become a lover of games as well so we do family night games almost every night! It rocks!
  9. I love music! All types! Most people are surprised at the amount of different songs I know! Too bad I don't have a singing voice like half of my family!
  10. I really enjoy blogging! It has been a great addition to my life! It allows me to keep our families in Oregon and Texas and even around Louisiana up to date on the craziness we call life! I love seeing that people have visited and read!
Well, I hope that wasn't too boring! lol I am not the most interesting person in the world and it seems so silly to write random things about myself! lol

Saturday, January 24, 2009

Our "Extra" Yard ~ LOVE IT!

So our new house sits on an interesting lot! It is approximately 60x180. Plenty of yard, but definitely not quite as big as our Jeanerette house which sits on a 160x180 lot. But there has been a treat involved with our choice of lots!

There is a Coulee (a small stream, bayou or canal) that runs behind our house. On the other side of the Coulee is a field and a pond of sorts. Well, the land our subdivision sits on was an old sugarcane field. The contractors had to build up the land about 4 feet before building. Well, where our property line ends, there is a drop off which is where to original land sat. And beyond that there is about another 20 feet until you get to the Coulee. This land is basically ours, but couldn't be listed as part of the property because of the water way.

Well, like some of our neighbors, we have decided to take advantage of this additional land. And who wouldn't want a backyard with a view of nature! I have woken up many mornings, gone into the kitchen to open our roman shades and watched an egret walking along or sitting in one of our trees! I absolutely love it! We also have an Oak tree, which we are lucky to have and hopefully Regan's tree swing will be hanging from it soon! I know she has missed it!

Well, back to the story. So in December we paid the boy down the street to clear the area for us. He chopped down all the vines and trees. He never actually finished, so the other day Bub and I got on it!


Doesn't it look nice?? This was covered in trees and wood and all kinds of stuff! You can actually see the ground now! The plan is to put up a 6 foot fence on the left and right sides of the yard. And across the back, before the drop into the additional land, we will put a 4 foot fence with a gate. That way we can still see our "nature" and can have a privacy fence up! Speaking of nature, did I mention too that the sun sets just behind those trees?? Every evening we are greeted with the most beautiful colors stretched across the sky!! I will have to take a few pictures one day and share!

This is the view from our house
You can see Bub on the lower part by the Coulee


Working hard

Burning the trees and twigs!


Well we are almost done with our little project, at least for now! I hope to put a comfy bench or chair down there so I can enjoy the quietness of our yard!!

Friday, January 23, 2009

The Edible Bowl

There is a very limited number of things I miss about Oregon. Very limited! Actually, since the list is so short I can share......

  1. My Family and a certain few friends
  2. Having a real beach within an hour or so away
  3. Experiencing 4 actual season each year
  4. Chowder Bowls
The point of this blog is the latter. Behold the Chowder Bowl!



I have missed being able to find these anywhere. Strange desire too, since I have only had these a few times in my life. They go hand in hand with going to the beach in the winter, which happened to be when we went most of the time.

So I saw these boules the other day and couldn't resist an attempt to recreate something I miss. Did it work? No! It didn't taste bad and Bub really enjoyed it. I think it is equally about the memories and the atmosphere as it is about the actual food! I guess it was worth a shot! And in the least I took care of my craving for a while I am sure!!

..................now if I can just find a good French Dip Sandwich!!!

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

A New Commander in Chief!


Well, today our new president takes his place at the podium and as the ruler of our great nation!

I unfortunately did not vote this year. Though registered, I was in the process of moving into our new house and just couldn't take the time to stand in lines. Had I have voted, I would have cast it in favor of Obama. Now, living her in Southern Louisiana I found that I am among the minority with my choice of people. But, everyone has their own reasons for who they choose and I am no different!

First I want to say that not only am I happy that Obama won because I truly believe he can be a great help in fixing our country, but I also can't help but feel warm inside that our nation has finally stepped away from the premise that women and "colored" people would never run our country! HA! Okay, that was slightly immature, but since the election I have been thrilled that in my lifetime I was able to bear witness to something like this!

I am not watching the inauguration today. I have never watched the previous ones and really don't have any interest to watch it today! History has been made and watching a big "party" or not doesn't change that! I will have 4 years to see Obama on TV.

I hope he bring us all to where we need to be and lives up to the expectations we have!

God Bless America!!

Saturday, January 17, 2009

Random Thoughts for the Day!

If I worked at a butcher's or a meat packing place, would I be a vegetarian?

Why do women have all the "things"? ie: periods, cramps, sore boobs, have to shave everything, get pregnant only to gain weight, get stretch marks, saggy boobs, labor pains, lactating, postpartum depression, then there is always breast cancer and menopause. Someone please tell me what men deal with???

What makes cat people love cats and dog people love dogs? And those in between love everything else?

I think a house without plants just doesn't make sense! It changes the whole vibe of a house I think!

Isn't it weird that when you are 12 or so, being 18 seems like an eternity away. But when you are 18 it really came pretty quick and you don't remember what the big damn deal was!

Why is it so easy for some people to have 3 and 4 or more kids, while people like me are scared to have number 2? Hmmmm.

Why do some people have the opportunity to grow old with their mate or watch your kids grow old and others lose them early? How do you get picked to be the lucky ones to have your family for always?

I know I sound like a child, but why do things have to change? Why do people have to grow old and die?

Why do we never realize when we are in the moment that it will be a cherished one so we can take advantage of it! We always realize later how special it was then hope we relished it enough for the memory to carry us through the years!

It amazes how quickly things can change! From people to emotions to life! Just amazing!

Is it possible to be friends with people who's lifestyle and choices are conflicting with your beliefs?

Where are all the good movies at?? I can't remember the last time an AMAZING movie came out! Especially an amazing horror flick! I am totally jones-ing for a great scary movie!


Blogging is a Release!

I was doubtful sleep would come easy last night because of the raging load up crap that is filling my head! You know the stuff that nags at you when it's quiet and you are cleaning and before you know it you're mad, depressed or crying?! Getting to sleep some nights, no matter how tired I am just really has become hard! Normally after laying in bed for a few hours I will get up and take a half a dose of Nyquil. This usually helps! But I dislike doing it. Thankfully Bub is home when I do so he can take care of Regan.

Anyways, yesterday was a whirlwind of emotions for me starting with it being the anniversary of the day they pulled my Mamaw off life support. All of my family and I agree that it just doesn't seem like it has been a whole year! I guess that proves exactly how long wounds stay open and how the pain just really does not subside! (to know the story go to January 2008)

Maybe I have a lot of guilt still since I was supposed to stop by the day before she had her heart attack and called and said, I will just come on Monday like I usually do! Maybe I still cannot face that I, for some reason passed up the chance, even though I was unaware to see her and talk to her one last time! It sucks! And it hurts! And it eats me up inside! On top of that dealing with
death is something I am an amateur at. My Mamaw's funeral was the first real funeral and real major death close to me in my entire life. The two days at the hospital and the two day long funeral was really more than I could handle! And to be honest, yesterday was the year anniversary of her death and I still have yet to visit the Moselium. I kept saying I wasn't ready. And there were quite a few days that I fully intended to go on my way home from New Iberia and some how talking myself out of it each time! I guess I don't see going to see where she "lays" will really bring me any comfort at all. She is gone. When I stand at those places my miond goes visual and all I SEE is dead people laying in coffins inside of this wall. Seeing Mamaw laying there sucked! She looked like she was sleeping! It seemed far easier for me when Mamaw Rose passed and I just knew she was gone and there was no viewing and she was creamated and we had a service to bury the urn. I was more easily able to accept it for what it was. At the funeral I found myself - the WHOLE time honest to God waiting for her to sit up and be like "what the hell are yall doing?!" It was torture!

I hope to soon come to terms with my own guilt, and find a way to go to her and hope it brings me peace! I guess though, it is hard to find peace when all things have fallen apart since her death! I am a firm believer in the fact that all things happen for a reason. This one, even after a year still has me stumped! Our family has been torn apart and I doubt it will ever be mended! A lot of people are hurt and I don't see it ending soon or ending well. What would be the real reason for this?? Sigh.

Well, the moral to this blog is that I truly think that blogging is a great release! I think that even if you are feeling something for one day, writing it down really does relieve all the stress and anguish! Sometimes I let all the little things weigh me down and interrupt my daily life. I am working on it and I think blogging will definitely be a source in which I come to peace with a lot of the demons in my head......or all around me! LOL

Friday, January 16, 2009

On My Mind....

There are so many things on my mind today!


"Heaven on My Mind" by Anthony Armstrong

  • Losing people you love SUCKS! It makes me want to revert to childhood and scream at the top of my lungs "THATS NOT FAIR!!!!!!"
  • I have decided I MUST worry less about other people's problems and short comings and just concentrate on my life and family. I waste too much energy stressing for other people and it is time I left it alone!
  • I pride myself in being my own person! Being NON mainstream is who I am. Do NOT try to act like I copy anything you or anyone else done. Honestly, it drives me INSANE!
  • I love my neighborhood! It's so quiet and peaceful and I am pleased with our choice to live here. I hope nothing changes that!
  • Flaky people suck! Do what you say you are going to do!
  • I don't like a: people who don't put their small children in car seats b: people who get drunk or have drunk people around their children c: people who think their child can do no wrong but everyone else's is the devil!
  • I constantly worry that my child is not stimulated enough. I worry that I am hampering her abilities by not having her in Pre K.
  • I am scared to start trying to get pregnant again. Not knowing what the outcome will be after so many failed attempts worries me!
  • I am excited to start doing more things with friends! I enjoy my "Heather" time!
  • I can't wait until Bub's truck is done! I wonder if I am more excited than he is?? lol
  • Dog breeders are the devil! Why keep breeding animals when there are hundreds of animals in need of homes sitting in shelters?? Why do people feel the need to have the perfect pet? Mine is perfect and she is a rescued mutt!!
  • I hope the economy gets better! Gustav really screwed things up for us! Sigh!
  • I am making a HUGE pot of Gumbo tomorrow!! That is one thing the 3 of us definitely agree on around this house! lol
  • I love my husband! He really is wonderful! Do you think he knows it though?
  • It has been months since I have really cleaned my E! I am so ashamed!! We have a garage now, so I have no damn excuse either!
  • I think we may go skating on Monday if they are open! Good Fun!!

Well, that is all I have for now! See, these are the thoughts that ramble in my head at 1 am when I am trying to freaking sleep! Maybe this will help.........HA doubt it! lol

Night all! Bub and I are gonna watch a weird movie called the Pineapple Express!

Friday, January 9, 2009

My Child is Back!!

Well, as unbelievable as it may sounds, we are back to normal! We picked Regan up from school. She was in good spirits and was pretty good. Her and Bub had a great night and she woke up this morning and was great! We went to the Zoo with our playgroup buddies and she was great! And, to prove that she is her old self again if not better than ever.......in the gift shop - well after her nap, when asked to put back the few things she asked us to buy, she did it with no argument! Woo Hoo!! My sweet little baby is back!!!

There really must have been a connection with Regan's behaviors and the length of time I gave her those meds!! I am a little troubled by it, or at least the fact that I don't even understand how it can be! As I said before, Triaminic Flu and Triaminic Night Time Cough and Cold are things I keep stock in our house. Regan is rarely sick. She actually gets a pretty bad cold once a year. And a few sniffles throughout the year. When she has either I give her both of these and have never had issues! I guess I will think twice the next time I think she needs a dose.

What I do know is I wish I had figured this out days ago. Life would have been so much better for all of us! Well, it's another lesson learned! This is definitely one happy momma....signing off!!

Thursday, January 8, 2009

A Rough Week!



I have been trying to figure out what happened to my kiddo! She has been like a whole different child! No joke! On more than one occassion I have asked myself, my husband, my friends and family......."who is that kid and where did my sweet girl go?!"

You know the terror instilled in all parents when the thought of "terrible 2's" is mentioned?? Well, this is a terrible 2 times ten!! I am not sure what happened and I hope it is over soon, but it has been plain rough! Know why a terrible 4 is worse than a terrible two?? Because a 4 year old's will power, vocabulary, ability of expression and attitude are a vicious combination....especially when it's coming from a determined and very smart one! Couple all of that with a child who really wants something and we are all in for a treat ! For lack of a better word!

The past week has been horrible! It really was over night and Bub and I were left without even a plan of action! A few days ago I decided maybe it was one of those food things. So I started looking at things online. I didn't find too much info, but decided we were going to go with candy free for now to see. No real change! We have had to walk out of Walmart because of pure meltdowns and everything is a battle and usually ends in her flipping out and us yelling, spanking or taking something away. It sucks!!

Last night something dawned on me. For the past week and a half she has been taking medications for a cold. Now, these are two meds she has taken previously, so I didn't think anything of it. But she has never taken them for an extended amount of days - more than 2 actually. The two are Triamenic brand. One is the Flu and the other the Night Time Cough & Cold. So last night I decide we will omit these even if she has a little cough. So this morning, no dose and the morning went off without a hitch or problem! We all got ready and took her to school. I asked to school if they had been dealing with behaviors and they said no. So, when we get her this evening and in the next few days I will be able to see if it was infact the medications. They truly are the only thing that has been different daily. And I REALLY want my daughter back!!

I will update by tomorrow if things are back to normal!

Monday, January 5, 2009

I LOVE to Dance!

I have always had a love of dance! I took classes when I was 8 or 9. Didn't really enjoy it much though. Tap - really never my thing! Ballet - grace is not something in my genes! lol I guess I lost interest and my mom let me drop out. I think I looked cute in my dance costume though!



I think that was the first and only time I ever sported fishnet stockings! Hey look, my legs match the decor on the wall! lol It says I am 9 and my sister Shainah is 2 months old on the back of the picture. We lived in California at the time.

I remember dancing all the time! At home, at friends houses and no doubt down the halls in school! I ran across these pictures while looking for the one above. They are dated 1986. I was at the neighbor across the street's house in Lubbock. Not sure what I was doing - or what I was dancing to, but its the 80's, I'm sure if you use your imagination you can put a Wham song or something random and it will fit! LOL



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And I of course had to find some more recent pictures of me dancing just for kicks! These were taken in 1999/2000 after I moved back to Oregon. As you can see from the pictures, it appears my dance moves haven't changed much! Well, at least when it comes to freeze frame!




Those were from a place a frequented called the Underground. They played a little of everything. In the second picture I am dancing the Cumbia - nice, right?! lol

Well, I don't have any more recent pictures than those! But hopefully I will have some to share soon! Last summer I started taking a West Coast Swing dance class! It was fun and damn hard actually! There are no constant patterns mixed with some turns! It's really fun to do though and really fun to watch! Since starting that class I met a few people who go dancing weekly. And in turn started taking a Latin Class. I found a dance partner from the West Coast class and we tried it out! It was unbelieveably fun! After the second session we started concentrating only on the Cha Cha (which is my favorite) doing more complicated patterns. It is fun! We have two more classes left for this session! I hope we can coordinate a day and time that works for everyone! I really am not ready to end my dancing yet! I really look forward to it all week!

Next week I will be taking my camera and hope to capture a few videos of me doing my thing! Maybe a few pictures too - who knows! Stay tuned till after Monday!

Sunday, January 4, 2009

A 4 Year Old's Sleep Habits.....Or Lack Of!


I didn't think it could get much worse, but it has! I might as well have a newborn in this house for as much as Bub or I (okay, actually Bub) gets up every night! It is beyond ridiculous!

Because I have added FEEDJIT Live onto my blog I am able to see locations people visit my blog from as well as if they used a search engine to look for something and that brought them to read it! Can I just tell you that almost on a daily basis someone finds my blog by seeking info on 4 year olds that don't sleep! What does this mean?? Well, for one thing it means that I am not alone in my battle with this - and I guess neither is anyone else! Who ever would have thought that a child as old as 4 would not sleep! We not only battle at nap time, Regan now gets up a MINIMUM of 3 times a night. They are for various reasons, but sometimes it is just to get her daddy to tuck her back in.

I have luckily dodged this bullet for the last few months. He is still home from Gustav and for whatever reason, she doesn't ask me for anything when she gets up! Probably because she knows I don't tolerate it! She really does have her poor daddy wrapped around her little finger!

I really wish I had an answer to this. To help not only us, but everyone else ready to lock their kiddo's door so they cannot wake up the whole house every night! Do you know about a week or so ago Regan woke Bub up at about 6:30 in the morning and wanted to take a shower! Yep, you read right, a dang shower! And do you know that for two hours she came in and out of our bedroom fussing and whining and arguing about taking a shower! The worst part is this happened to be the only day for a week and a half that we all could sleep in and were going to stay home all day and just relax. And for some reason she wanted to take a shower at the butt crack of dawn! Sigh!

I keep wondering if it has to do with her Daddy being in so long! Once he gets called back out to work I will report back on the subject to see if it's just because he lets her get away with it or if she just doesn't sleep!

Saturday, January 3, 2009

Astrology & The New Year




When I was in my teens and early 20's I was obsessed with Horoscopes. Anytime I would read a description of a Taurus is was amazingly accurate. I could never quite understand how a printed book could explain me so well. I of course assumed that each sign was described very vague to where it would partially explain most people, but it wasn't true! It would describe parts of me that no one really knew. In ways it helped me understand myself and my flaws a little better!



Going through life, I have let astrology aid me in understanding people. I know it sounds strange, but it's true. Knowing about different signs made me understand people more and even connect with them. I guess having a better understand of what makes people who they are helps me be more tolerable! My child for instance, is definitely a Gemini through and through! Gemini is the twin sign. And Regan without a doubt has two very absolute personalities! And knowing this has helped me with a lot of my dealings with her! Now Bub on the other hand is really nothing like his sign! Funny, right?! I guess with anything you have to take it as it for what it's worth! lol

But, if you want know about me I really don't have to tell you! All you'll ever need to know can be found on any Taurus description::

TAURUS

The Bull
April 21 to May 21
Ruling Planet : Venus
Starstone : Emerald
Colour : Pink
Lucky Numbers: 1 10 11 17 28 29 46 71


The second sign of the zodiac is concerned with money, true love, trustworthiness and security.

ELEMENTAL QUALITY : taurus is fixed earth sign of the zodiac and represents loyalty.
SPIRITUAL GOAL : in each incarnation the true goal of taurus is to find their soul mate.
PERSONALITY : POSITIVE : conservative, dependable, calm and loving. NEGATIVE : stubborn, and be warned - never betray a taurus!
SECRET TAURUS : takes the long term view.
RULING PLANET : venus.
APPEARANCE : sturdy body, face often rounded.
TAURUS AT HOME : enjoys comfort and luxury
AS A PARENT : of all the star signs taurus makes the best parent.
WORK : hard worker, prepared to work long hours, usually self employed.
LOVE : lucky is the star sign that finds a taurus partner, but be warned - a taurus will never forgive a betrayal.
FRIENDS : will expect absolute loyalty.
INTERESTS : painting, horse riding and collecting things.
HEALTH : watch your kidneys and thyroid.
FAMOUS TAUREANS : Barbra Streisand, Cher and Sigmund Freud.

Borrowed from Paraluman Astrology

I couldn't explain it better myself and anyone who knows me can attest to pretty much everything listed! I can explain most all of these things....with stories actually! lol


I am really not "into" astrology anymore. I do not regularly read up on anything or check my horoscope! I usually reflect on what I already know and can usually, based on someone's attitude can guess their sign. Today however, when signing into my Yahoo there was an article about Your Yearly Astrological Overview for 2009 I was curious so I went to mine. I must say I was surprised to find many of the things that I blogged about previously, my "resolutions" for 2009 were plainly written out for the Taurus for 2009. From my desire to slow down and enjoy life, to partaking more in my creative outlets.........I really am excited for all the things that will no doubt be happening this year! I just found it interesting that it was sort of written out already!!

Friday, January 2, 2009

Little Things!


I have always been a lover of music! I truly cannot live without it! If I'm in the car, something good is playing! If I am cleaning the stereo MUST be on! When we moved into the new house, the stereo wasn't hooked up and I started putting the TV on the 900 stations so I could get my music fix!

Here lately, I find myself sitting at the computer or cleaning in silence. Ahhh silence, I rarely say that, nor do I get to "hear" it! For some reason quiet is so nice! It has been so quiet at times in our house that I can hear the tick-tap-tick-tap of my cat's nails as they walk through the house! My favorite thing to do when I wake up is open up the shades and sit at the kitchen table and get on my laptop. Regan is usually in her room watching a movie. Just the stillness and the quiet really starts my day off right!

I really never imagined I would enjoy such a simple little thing!



Thursday, January 1, 2009

A New Year!! A Fresh Start & A New Outlook!

First, I am pleased to say that I indeed made it a whole year of blogging! I truly assumed I'd make good attempt to keep it up, but by George, I actually found things to write about!! Interesting enough, my intention for my blog was to write about the oddities in my life. The funny stories, the strange stuff that is in my head, realizations and even things I ponder and/or cannot seem to figure out at all. For 2008, my blog turned out to be a diary of sorts. Which, I guess is what I was needing it for at the time! So all in all I am quite proud of myself!

I am very excited about the new year! I have so many ideas and interests and I think I will finally be able to slow down enough to make them all happen! Now that we are in the new house and mostly settled - I will finally be able to start dedicated time to volunteering! I have been wanting this for so long, but living in Jeanerette made so many things so inconvenient! Not to mention that by Fall Regan will be in school 5 days a week and I will need something extracurricular to make me feel useful! Now the task of where my time is needed and where I will be useful is next!

I am not one to make resolutions! The way I look at it, I don't need a new year to set goals. And too, who really sees these things out?? No one really ever resolves to do something easy! It's always quitting smoking, losing weight or something else they have been unable to do over the previous year(s). Why does one think that a new year and a resolution will finally trigger something? I just don't get it!

At the beginning of each year what I usually do is reflect over the past year. In doing this I usually say stuff like "I wish we would have spent more time with the family" or "I wish we did more around the house or in the yard" or "Why didn't we find the time to take a family vacation this year?". The things that I wish I had done or said or whatever is what becomes my "Plan" for the new year! If you wish to call it a resolution, so be it!

So here it is:

In 2009 I resolve to...........
  • Spend more time doing those little family things (going on walks, playing games, reading, going to the movies, etc) each day. She will be grown before I know it!
  • Take the time to go visit Aunts, Uncles, Grandparents and Greats. Family is important.
  • Send cards letting people know I think of them often and they are important to me
  • Spend time doing the creative things I enjoy - crocheting, painting, taking photos
  • Revel in every moment spent with Bub and Regan and those I love! Life is short!
  • Continue being the best wife and mom I can be! Bub and Regan deserve that!
  • Slow down! Live each day the best way I can and have no regrets!
As you can tell my hopes for the new year are just to enjoy it. Spend all the time I can doing the things I love with the people I love! At the end of the day, and at the end of a lifetime it is who you touched and who you loved that really counts! How hard you worked or how much money you made isn't what will matter then!

AS far as my blogging is concerned, I hope my life will slow down enough to be less of a diary and more of a place for my thoughts and such! But, since I can never know what the year will have in store - I guess we will just have to see!

I hope those who read will continue to do so! Please subscribe if you are an avid reader and I hope to hear from you from time to time! It's nice to know what I put on here is being read! I hope you like the new look! I am finally going to take the time to start prettying up my blog and hopefully will even add a signature soon! See, I am already starting to slow down and take time for me! :o)

Happy New Year!!!