I wish I could reach through my computer and slap the shit out of whoever is trying to charge us this $215! The charge was originally posted on the 3rd, which was Thursday morning. I saw it about 7 in the morning. And called the bank at 8 when they opened.
Well, it's Saturday and since it hasn't hard posted to my account it won't until Monday at the soonest. What does this mean. Well, it basically means that the $215 is in limbo and though we could really spend what is in our account, it will no doubt eventually bounce things. So we are unable to use any money in our account for fear of the extra complications it would cause. The bank assured us that any fees we might incur would be taken care of once they straightened this out. But I just can't see doing that unless completely necessary! So unfortunately we are using credit cards until this is sorted out. And I JUST paid one of them completely off! I even stared at the bill - or should I say the zero balance bill just last week! Sigh!
It's also torture since we are awaiting all of Bub's last Baker related things - check, per diem, retirement, etc. The waiting sucks! Especially since he decided to fix the Chevy and use that to drive to and from the ports. I think I am just as excited as he is to start fixing it up and getting it looking pretty again! I had actually hoped to spend this weekend looking for parts and maybe checking out some u-pull-it places or junk yards! BUT, since we have no money it will have to wait another week or two.
Here she is. Used to be blue and beautiful with a louvered hood. When we got her back she was half blue and half primered with some purple flames on the hood. It was very sad! So it's now mostly primered black. I think he decided to paint it white. He's been pricing a few places. Hopefully with everything coming in and the new pay he won't have to wait too long to get her pretty! Next we just have to get the title "found" and get her street ready! I can't wait!
Next week is Bub's last week of training. For all or most of the week Regan and I will join him in Houma. This is the disadvantage of having only one street legal and well working vehicle. But, at the same time, we haven't needed a 2nd car for almost 4 years! I told him we should just get another Element!! (insert HUGE smile here!)
Well, there's a lot going on lately! So much so, that I am having a hard time keeping up! Oh, and of course I just keep packing things in there!
Right now I am sitting in a hotel room in Houma. Bub took a new (well paid and well deserved) job with Tetra Technologies. He is in training for that new position. I think today is he doing his water safety stuff. The whole thing is really pretty exciting, but it's so stressful for me since I'm so used to knowing what and when and how!
In other news, we got hit with some fraud with our debit card. Some friggen company debited us $215. After doing A LOT of looked and googling and calling, the company ended up being something called lunarpages.com. It's some internet company that sell people web sites or pages or something. I am pissed off. They cannot find us in their database. Well guess what - it's cause we didn't authorize or purchase a damn site! They said, well, we always call before starting sites to make sure the authorization is real. Okay, if you call the person who set up the account, do you think they'll tell you it was their card! Ugh! So frustrating! Hopefully the charge will hard post to our account so I can start the process with the bank! I just wish I knew how they got a hold of Bub's card number. My debit card is the one that we use for everything online. Hopefully I'll have more answers tomorrow!
You know, I had intended on using this blog almost daily, as my life is so packed with thoughts and revelations and feelings and issues and stress and happiness........
But the odd thing is I have been OVERLY consumed with all of these things at the same time that everyone time I sit down to start to write, there's just too much to say. I cannot seem to focus on one thing or one point or even one day!
Lets see....... a recap of just the past two and a half weeks - ready?!
First, my playgroup coordinated our bi-annual charity event, adopting a local no-kill animal shelter called Lafayette Animal Aid. We spend 6 week collecting items on their wish list and alos monetary donations! At the end of our time frame we were able to donate a LARGE amount of good and also raised $220!! The people at the shelter were wonderful! I don't know who was more excited about it all, us or them! It was a really great experience and I am so glad we chose them!
So, I decided to host a family reunion for the Etie side of my family. I coordinate it around the time when my dad, step-mom and little sister come to visit. The day before they are supposed to leave Texas I get a call that my dad has been fighting the flu for about 5 days and they may not be coming. (granted, this is two days before the reunion!). Later that night they call and say he not only has the flu but it has now turned into Well, going a little further back I decide to host a family reunion here at my home for the Etiepneumonia. He was going to rest, gets some daily shots from his doctor and would hopefully be there in time for the reunion. They ended up getting here at 10:30 am...... the reunion started at 11 am! lol I was very relieved they made it thought! It wouldn't have been the same without them!
The reunion went very well! Not everyone was able to come, but I met people in the family I had not yet been able to meet and they were a pleasure to be around! There was a lot of talk of old times and of our ancestry and about people I had never had the privilege of meeting!
I hope we take advantage of the family we do have and take the time to make this an annual event! At the end of the day, family is all we have!!
Well, there is more, but I am short on time at the moment! More to come!!
When I started this blog it was my intend that it be a daily or weekly digest into my life, my thoughts, my surroundings. Since the passing of my grandmother I have been using it as a sounding board with a depressing tone to it. Now, this has helped my greatly. Expressing myself and getting it down has helped me cope with a lot. But, as of today, it will serve more of a daily (if there is enough to scrawl about daily) journal.
On my mind today is my upcoming wedding anniversary! 6 years!!! I was joking with Bub the other day about how it has been the LONGEST 6 years of my life! I lie! It has been the best 6 years! I got lucky! Bub is awesome! I try hard to make sure that he knows every day how much I love him and how much I appreciate his hard work and sacrifice. Our life is the way it is because of him and because of his love and dedication to his family!
He is definitely my other half. Without him I would be incomplete! He is a great husband and provider and a wonderful father! I cannot count the number of times that a friend or family member has commented about how great of a man he is! It's nice that others recognize how amazing he is!
The new task is finding something special for him to mark these past 6 years! Some people say it should be a baby! Ha! lol I have about three weeks to figure something out!
It is interesting that the loss of a loved one is what will bring a family closer. Or will be the push they need to realize how much time has been wasted! But I guess it is nice when something positive can come out of something so devastating and life changing.
My Papaw seems to have come to terms with her death and found peace. I hope I too can find this peace and find comfort some how. Some days are harder than others for me, as I am certain for him as well.
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My dad, step-mom and sister MaKenna will be coming to visit in March during their Spring Break. I am very excited! They have not been back to visit since before Mamaw Rose passed away in 2006. I know it will be hard for him coming here and her not being here. I have planned a Family Reunion, inviting everyone I can think of. I hope this helps!
I am really excited about throwing this reunion too! I love to entertain and thankfully our house and yard can easily accommodate all the families that should be coming! I am making my infamous pulled BBQ pork. It should go over well!
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The jury is still out as to whether we will increase our family in size. Some days it's easier to say yes. But there are those days where I am so overwhelmed with the daily grind that I cannot imagine how I could manage a toddler, all the daily tasks and top it off with a pregnancy or a baby! Maybe if Bub worked closer or was home daily this would be an easier decision. Not to mention all the past pregnancy issues we've had. Sometime I think not knowing whether or not it is possible to have another may be better! By the end of this year we will know whether we will try to or keep our family how it is now!
Ever since the passing of my grandmother, I have had a flood of emotions. Some I am resolving and dealing with head on. Writing in my blog is helping a lot with that! But the one emotion that has been looming over me is fear. I am afraid! Afraid of what, I am not exactly sure! Anything I cannot see within my normal sight range for starters!
Ever since one of my trips to ICU and feeling the strong tug on the bottom of my shirt from some unseen 'being', I have been creeped out. I am fairly sure this tug was from my Mamaw, though I am unsure only because it was so low! Now, in the past I have seen ghostly figures or spirits, whatever you want to call them, in the past. You get used to this after a while and I used to be comforted by most of these. For some reason, since this is the first person to pass close to me, I am DEATHLY afraid she will appear to me. Why am I afraid since she is my Mamaw? I wish I knew! Maybe one day I will be ready to be visited by her. Hopefully it will not be too late for it! Even as I sit here and write, since it is so late, I keep seeing things out of the corner of my eye and I just don't want to look! The feeling is similar to watching a horror movie that scares the shit out of you and being afraid to go to the bathroom by yourself for fear something will be in there waiting for you or hiding in the shower! I HATE it!!
I should be wanting a visit! I should be yearning the contact and even the closure, but I don't think I am at a state to handle it! Everyone has their opinions about death and what happens afterwards. If I go along with the thought that there is nothing after death, seeing her would just freak me out. If I believe that spirits can walk among us and been seen and stuff, I don't know if I can handle seeing someone that I am supposed to be accepting and being gone.....forever!
The other thing that has me afraid is the fear of something happening to me. A car wreck, taking the trash to the road and someone coming out of the shadows and attacking me. I find myself looking over my shoulder or looking at my surroundings constantly to ensure nothing happens to me.
Why the hell am I so paranoid? What does my grandma passing by natural causes have to do with my sheer paranoia and fear of anything that moves or goes bump? Is there something wrong with me?! Of all of the emotions I thought would be associated with a loss of a loved one, this is not one I thought existed! I must be looking in the wrong place, but I have yet to find anything on the web about my 'issues'. I had hoped that by now these feelings would pass. But it seems to be becoming part of me now! I hope to find a book, or someone who knows what the hell is happening to me! Fear and paranoia is not something I am used to or comfortable with. I need to find out how to get closure or something!
But for now, I need to run to bed! Hopefully nothing will get me on my way! LOL (okay, really not funny, even coming from me! Oy!)
